Is it even worth it?! (yes!!!)

As many of you know Ben and I are going away for a few days. As we prep the kids with their stay to grammy and grampy's (thank you so much!!)  we are faced with yet another result of Julia's earlier years. Julia gets mad when we go away. With good reason she often has little faith that when we leave we are going to return, and words mean nothing to her. So Julia's way to show her fear and anger for this is to make the days leading up to going away as hard as she can for us. Yelling, screaming, hitting, and just all around defiance fills our days. We do what we can to just move on and deal with what we need to and not everything little thing. It is one of the more exhausting things we deal with at this point. We can leave for a night, a day, even when Ella is at children's for a few days we are met with such defiance. The return is much the same, it takes days for her to get herself back to a calm state from the simple reason that we came back. Packing for something is hard in itself, getting kids ready also a challenge. I have an amazing respect for parents with children who have special needs who brave going on vacation. the before and after often seem to cloud and overpower the R and R in the middle. That being said, off we go, to take a break, breathe and get some energy back to brave the return :)